Romans 8:28
All things work together for good for those who love God and                                                                                                          are called according to His purpose.
I sit in a quiet house. I have been alone now for 4.5 years. I can be in a crowd of people I am still alone.  Sharon was taken from me.  But the question I ask is why.  As I look at my life I see writing that is touching many lives. But was it worth it?  I see Kids who have drawn closer to each other and myself. But was it worth it.  I see lives touched by my prayers for them. But was it worth it?  I have met hundreds of people I would not have met. But is it worth it.  I have written two books, three years worth of devotionals that would not have been written. But is it worth it?   I would rather still have my child bride.  But the question I have to ask myself is what is Father’s purpose?  Many nights I lie on the couch and ask Father over and over again. What do you want?  What do you want me to do?  In the morning when I go to work I will ask that same question. Where do you want me to go, and who do you want me to talk to? I have had amazing things happen over the last four years.  But I always have to ask myself was it worth it?  There is no way to really answer that question.  Father looks at things a whole lot different than we do.  We look at things in the finite, Father in the infinite.  I can’t understand what part of Fathers purpose he has in this whole thing, but I do know that the end result will be a story that will be told for eternity.  I do know that the end result will be something glorious.  It’s ok not to be ok with the situation that you’re in.  It’s ok to be honest with our Father.  But remember this; Father’s purpose is something that is infinite.  We can’t understand all of his workings.  We don’t have to like them.  But we must understand that he really does have everything under control.  
Go in peace